"It was the biggest explosion I've ever felt in my life," Jazmine Walton says recalling the night she fired a handgun under her chin."

Before January 8, 2023 the 23-year-old content creator lived with undiagnosed schizophrenia which haunted her daily life.

She shot through her lip, teeth and nose but incredibly didn't pass out - but was in a coma for two weeks following two life-saving operations.

Now she openly shared her battle on social media in a bid to inspire others to seek help.

Speaking of the night she tried to take her own life, she recalls: "I looked in the mirror and I saw that there was nothing except blood."

"It was just burning so bad and I was trying to talk and was illiterate, and I couldn't get words out. "

"I didn't have a chin. I didn't have a lip. I didn't have teeth. Everything got blown out."

For the Daytona Beach native her illness was represented by an imagined - but very real-feeling - form-shifting man called The Enemy.

The tall white man with black hair had made appearances throughout her entire life but grew more apparent in early adulthood.

She imagined he was whispering to her about suicide.

"The Enemy said that it had to happen, that it was a part of whatever plan that he instilled from my life," Jazmine reveals. "

"And he was just putting false ideas in my head that were frightening and they just wouldn't stop. It just left me hopeless and it left me scared for my life."

Jazmine was living with her then-ex-boyfriend, when she tried to take her own life. and was struggling to cope with the break up.

"Not having him in my life romantically kind of put me in a spot where I was just broken and sad," she says. "

"My suicide attempt definitely was not because of my relationship. It was more so because of my schizophrenia and psychosis."

Eventually, the Daytona Beach native became estranged from her family due to increasingly intense paranoia and delusions.

"I sort of blamed them for it and I knew that was wrong and I was so saddened after the fact that I knew it wasn't them, that I knew that it was just the Enemy the whole time." "

Her ex kept a handgun in the apartment, and Jazmine recalls contemplating the idea of taking her life "for weeks in advance."

"I would hold the gun up to my chin or my head and say, ‘Okay, so today's going to be the day.' And I would then be like, ‘No, not today.'"

Back to the 8th of January at around 9:30 PM, her ex was was watching basketball on TV.

Jazmine walked up to the master bedroom and grabbed his gun from the closet.

"I was pacing for quite some time before actually pulling my trigger," she recalls. "I just kept trying to work myself up to doing it."

"I said, ‘I can't live a life where I hear a voice that I know is the Enemy, who I know has this plan to only destroy my life.' I just couldn't."

"I know there's hell and I know there's some sort of peace in heaven. And it's what I was craving. That's what I was chasing."

Jazmine pushed the barrel up against her chin.

"I was slowly pulling the trigger and I didn't fully press it down," she recalls. "I was just slowly pulling it and I was slowly pressing it and it ended up going off."

"It was like an explosion happened right in my room, but it was right in front of my body. It was right on my head."

"The bullet kind of ricocheted and it kicked back out," Jazmine says. "

"The kick was extreme. And so when it was under my chin, it kicked out frontward and the shell was lodged in my nose. The bullet ricocheted out through my bottom lip and then into the ceiling."

"I remember hearing screams, and then Aidan ran into the room and pulled me to the ground," she shares. "

"I laid there for a couple seconds breathing really heavily."

Miraculously, Jazmine says she "immediately stood up."

"I was like, ‘Okay, I can stand.' And I walked to try and get out of the room and our bathroom door was open. So I looked in the mirror."

While Jazmine stared at the blood and missing parts of her face, which she calls "gruesome and frightening," Aidan dialed 911. "

"I was conscious during the entire thing," she recalls. "I walked to the kitchen and grabbed a cup of water, but when I attempted to drink the water, it just fell straight through because nothing was there to catch the water down my throat."

"It was the most chilling night of my life."

"I just remember saying, ‘I need help.' I sat on the curb, and they picked me up and put me in the ambulance. The burning wouldn't stop. Every area that was open to the air was just burning so bad."

Medics rushed to assess her condition as she pleaded for help. "I remember an EMT holding a flashlight, inspecting the damage to my face."

The extent of her injuries required two life-saving surgeries, during which she flatlined twice.

"They said I didn't have a heartbeat for a while. Aidan later told me the amount of blood in the room was insane — there were even teeth on the floor, and a piece of my nose had fallen off."

After being revived, her fight for life continued in the hospital, where she was placed in a medically induced coma for two weeks.

When she woke up, the first thing she saw was her family. "I remember seeing my mom, dad, brother, and sisters. "

My mom said, ‘We love you, baby girl,' and my brother grabbed my hand.

"I remember grabbing his hand three times. In our family, we squeeze each other's hand three times to say, ‘I love you.' It's a short little thing we've done since birth."

Following her initial recovery, Jazmine was transferred to a psychiatric facility, where she was diagnosed with schizophrenia and psychosis.

"I just wanted the voices out of my head," she says, noting that medications helped manage the auditory hallucinations."

Now, Jazmine is a beacon of hope for others struggling with mental health issues. Through TikTok, she shares her story with her growing community of over 260,000 followers.

"I try to be a positive influence for people of all ages. I want them to know they're not alone, that there's someone who understands. I try to be a light that the world needs."

Jazmine says she can't talk or eat as well as she used could before the suicide attempt.

"Things just aren't the same as they used to be."

"I wake up every day and see a new person in the mirror," she adds. "It's hard because I used to think I was beautiful, and now I look different. "

"Sometimes it feels like I got all this plastic surgery, and I don't know who I am anymore."

"But then I have to stop and realize I did have a suicide attempt that led to so many different things in my life to go the opposite direction of what I was hoping for my life to go."

Her advice to anyone struggling with mental health challenges is simple but profound: "Depression is just a cycle of sadness and the only way to make it through is if you break the chains of sadness."

"It gets better," she adds. "It's about how you handle each day. I've been to the edge, but I'm still here to say you can make it through. It all starts with you."

As she navigates her new reality, she's now in a healthy relationship with Aidan. "We're back together now. He's supportive, loving, and caring. We take care of each other."

Despite everything, she's determined to outsmart the darkness that once threatened to consume her.

"I'm always in survival mode. I try to outsmart the Enemy all the time. I never want to be in that situation again. My mindset is to stay alive every moment of every day, and that's what I'm doing."